Love You.

YSaturday, December 30, 2006.

DAY ONE

Its been raining the past few days so annoying.

Its like wet everywhere.

Cannot train properly, can't cycle and stuff.

Make me feel so lazy! Argh.

Even shopping is a problem!

Coach Guo left us for China on thursday. sad.

I always feel very sad when he leaves.

That means i don't have my own actual coach to take me.

Since he left alot of people have been like slacking,

only except me and Pat.

Tiring man.

It started off with a boring program on a rainy tuesday.

We had to do 3000m long swim with paddles and flippers.

Then follow by 10x 50m one free one fly.

then 4x 25m sprint.

Follow by Wednesday.

A 12km long run for me and i did quite badly.

I finish in 69mins so slow.

Then 3 xs 300m uphill run.

And i was feelign so heavy like i would roll down the slope anytime man.

Thursday came and it was also rainy.

By this time coach had left and his wife took over the training program.

We did normal warmups as usual.

Then 8xs 50m sprint (free)

then the hard set 10xs 400m (5pulls 5swims)

The pulls were good but again the swims were bad because my back was aching badly.

The pulls every one i did like 5.20 which is 1.20 per 100m i guess.

Here come Friday which is today.

Did 4 rounds warmup with jacket.

Then 4 sets of 800m fast, 200m slow, 200m fast, 400m average.

It was suppose to be 8 xs 800m by Jerry change it.

I think it is more fun running the 4 sets.

I was pretty surprise that i could go faster and faster for the 800m and 200m.

Good run today, did 3.26 (1st), 3.22 (2nd), 3.20 (3rd), 3.13 (4th)

Quite amazing la esp the last one the last 400m i could do 1.35 wow.

I guess i train quite well today hee.

Enough about training lets go back to daily life.

Today i met up with my aunt at centrepoint to iron out some stuff.

Before i was on the way there i had to wait for half an hour for bus 14.

I was late. And guess what Bus 14 was packed with ppl.

All of them wanna go orchard to shop because of sales.

I realised something people are just Kiasu man!

Orchard was like jammed pack with ppl.

And of course a traffic jammed.

I was like in the upper deck of bus 14 and it was packed and suffocating.

The aircon was so not cold!!!

This was in the afternoon.

Guess how i started today,

I started today with a chinese slimming course recommendated by my coach.

It is said to be good haha.

I hope this works.

Doctor Han came to my house to treat me.

And guess what i was ask to eat daily for 20days,

so to be able to lose 4kg in 20days.

Feels impossible to me la.

I was ask to eat only greeneries, green apple, porridge, rice, bittergourd,fish and nothing else.

No sweet food no meat not even beef chicken pork or lamb.

Seriously torturing to me.

Don't know how long i can tahan but i have to tahan.

And i have to be treated continuously 7days.

Ouch!

He told me ppl take 2mins to finish one apple i have to finish the apple in 5-10mins.

Gosh this is driving me nuts esp with the no meat thing.

I feel tough without meat.

He say i am over nutritional. haha!

Oh and i hate bittergourd and how in the world am i gonna abstain from sugar.

And there is suppose to be a medicine for me to take , yao!

I hope it taste nice, but i don't think so beccause chinese medicine are all bitter.

At night after training, went to ABC market bought a cup of no sugar soyabean milk.

YUCKS!!! it taste horrible!

Then went to fair price and bought 5 green apples for me, 2 packets of omega no sugar soyamilk, wholemeal bread, 2o tea bags of lipton tea, eggs for me.

Food seems tasteless to me now. So not Edible!

Everything is Green yucks. Gross!

So this is DAY 1 and i shall countdown!

Determination, 20 days only!

loves;
12:08 AM

YFriday, December 29, 2006.

孙阳哥哥

他送给我的福娃欢欢（羡慕吧）

感不感觉他有点自恋呀呵呵

会不会感觉他有点长不大呀呵呵，像个小孩

这是我认的超级“丑”的上海哥哥孙阳

像明星吧呵呵

呵呵他是我在中国认的哥哥，也练铁人三项的。

超棒的！他本来不让我在这跨他的，但我看来是不可能了。

他是不是超级帅呀呵呵。

让我所说看我们怎么认识的，

前两年他到新加坡比赛的，我们就从那里慢慢认识的。

最后今年7月份又在嘉峪关比赛碰到，

聊了一天从那里在从QQ联系才变哥哥妹妹的。

很棒是吧！

我真没后悔过有这个哥哥的。

他好关心我的对我很好的。

有怎么帅，好难得的。

目前看来是我见过最帅的上海男人吧哈哈。

不知道以后是不是的。

但我好象也不怎么管的拉。

我这个哥哥很好每次都问候我。

虽然离的好象很远的，

但感觉好象很近的哥哥。

他有问题他会告诉我，

我有问题我会告诉他的。

是很想念这个哥哥的。

不知道什么时候会在见面的！

一年好象就见面那么一次呵呵。

谢谢你给我的礼物，

每次收到都会很高兴的。

谢谢你每次为我着想。

很难得的。

他不高兴的时候我会知道

他高兴的时候我也会知道的，

我也一样的吧。

谢谢你每次鼓励我。

我会努力的。

你也要快点好呀。

好好努力的。呵呵。

我这个妹妹是很担心你的。

希望你快点好的。

不想你白练的。

希望你付出能得到的。

谢谢你每次买东西寄给我，

是我不知道怎么感激的。呵呵

那里现在很冷你要多穿点衣服呀。

希望你能天天快快乐乐的过的。

我很想去上海探望你的，

顺便去玩一玩的呵呵。

真很想去的。

我们加油加油加油！不要放弃呀！

永远不会忘记的哥哥！

I MISS YOU!!! LOVE YOU TOO!!!

loves;
12:30 AM

YMonday, December 25, 2006.

(INSIDE)

(FRONT)

Those who have not receive my card, this is how it is suppose to look like!
MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR to ALL!
May God's blessings be with you all!
hope you like the card, its handmade!

loves;
12:50 PM

YSaturday, December 23, 2006.

想你们！

做面末好笑吧！

刚到的时候拍的！

快要走的时候

袁冬（也少不了你）

小白（我可没忘了你呀）

宋沛洋我弟弟帅吧！

胖子可爱吧！

:)笑

两个永远的好朋友！

BEST FRIENDS (永远不会忘）

Hello你们好呀!过的好吗？

我很想念你们的！

想念我们天天玩的时候。

一寂寞就会想起你们。

你们对我很好！

是我无法回报你们的。

我在济南真过的很高兴！

天天都好象圣诞节一样天天都好象我生日一样！

每天都很快乐。在那里难过的时候也算是很快乐的。

这里我是无法感受到的！

好象张不大那样的。

想想看每个星期天会一起跟你们去拍大头贴的。

在那里时间也好象过的很快的。

一转眼又过了一天的。

如果时间能回转以下就好了我就不会那么想念你们了。

真很想很想你们！

那里的天气变冷了你们要好好照顾身体的不要感冒呀！

要加油的。

在那里每天跟你们一起吃饭，

训练是很棒的，在这里都没有那种气氛的。

时间也过的很快一转眼就六个月快到了。

我忙得时候没怎么想念你们但一到

停下来有空的时候就会开始想了。

呵呵这种感觉不好受的呵呵！！！

上次我过了两个月才打电话给你们。

第一句话听到你们想我我很兴奋的。

很感动的。

一不会想到你们会想我的。

还以为你们会把我骂了一段呢特别是李孜豪的。

呵呵因为我答应你的事还没做到的，

感觉有点内疚的。

对不起拉！

我真被你们感动！好爱你们的。

如果新加坡有你们这些朋友我日子也会过的很快乐的。

可惜我们住的这么远呀里对方这么远的呵呵！

有时候会想你们在干什么的？

睡觉吗？或者训练呢？或者吃饭呢？

有没有被教练骂呢？苦吗？

那种想法的！呵呵！有点傻吧呵呵。

谢谢你们给我这么快乐的感觉这么

快乐的回忆这么快乐的日子这么快乐的朋友！

我非常感谢的。

想起我跟王振宇闹的时候，

跟李孜豪闹的时候，

跟胖子翻脸的时候真好的。

现在要翻脸的机会都没有。

一起疯的时候。

在那里做事的时候会主义你们的时候。

感觉都很棒的。

我在这只能看大头贴了呵呵

幸好还有你们的大头贴的不然我真不知怎么办了。

快哭了呵呵。。。

就写到这里了如果可以的话请你们要拍一张大头贴给我可以吗？

当圣诞节礼物可以吗？

摆脱你们了！

好了今天是为你们而写的！

拜拜了！

希望我打电话时我们能多聊一点的呵呵！

I MISS YOU VERY MUCH! LOVE YOU TOO!

loves;
9:40 PM

YFriday, December 22, 2006.

NEW STUFF

My mum bought all theses for me last 2 days!
Whee! Nice?
All are new hehe!
Got all theses from Far East Plaza!
RIBBON EARRINGS

CROSS EARRINGS

SHOES

3/4 PANTS

WHITE SHORTS

CUTE DARK GREY SHORTS

RED TOP

COLOURFUL TOP (BACK)

COLOURFUL TOP (FRONT)

loves;
12:40 AM

YMonday, December 18, 2006.

NEOPRINTS!

2 BLUR QUEENS!

went to hereen with clar today! guess what we had loads of fun taking neoprints haha.

and we were like so blur taking neoprints esp. me man!

its been like so long i haven't took neoprints in singapore.

don't know since went man!

haha and i don't know how to operate the machines all jap words haha.

anyway we were like posing damn fast haha. so crazy haha.

i think clarissa and i look good in theses neoprints! what do you think clar?

oh yar actually i was the one who decides to take neoprints because i wanna send it to china haha.

yesterday i had great fun talking to my china friends. its been like 2 months since i last called them. have been busy with training and trials hehe.

anyway i really missed them! I MISS CHINA and MISS MY FRIENDS MORE!

they were really nice they were saying that they missed me alot and asking me why i didn't call them for so long!

thinking back of the time that i was in china it was really fun, every sunday we will go to the neoprint shop and take photos so crazy! and when it is free and easy time everyone will just relax and play haha. everyone eats together and train together really fun.

I miss the time there!

actually great to hear their voices. hope i can go back next year haha.

my good friends are there and i hope they are really doing well man.

and taking neoprints in china is like so cheap its $1 where else in Singapore is 10 times more!

Ouch! thats why i am broke today!

Anyway tmr will be start of training, hopefully i don't drag to train hee.

MY FINAL SPEECH haha- THANKS Clar i really had fun! :)

loves;
9:55 PM

YSunday, December 17, 2006.

SATURDAY.

Did my swim re-trial and swam even worse.
I guess there is like no point re-trialling anymore because i am like so not up to it.
Its like mentally i am already not there, don't even need to talk about physically.
I had headache when i was trialling! Goodness.
I'm like so tired of trials and like so tired of meeting my dad's expectations.
Coach even say i was like way too tired.
I was prepared to do even better but my body simply can't take it.
I have been like stressing myself to perform in trials.
ok enough about swim trials.

After that i went for MOL(Magic of Love) that was performed by my senior Pastor, Pastor Lawerence Khong.
I went with Kelvin and Ryan they all(from Delta gym), then apparently met my spiritual brothers and sisters when looking around for seat.
Then we sat together lor.
Bro Nic bought the MOL magic box and it cost like 30bucks so ex. haha
but quite fun la.
The show was like awesome!
I enjoyed the MOL, the costumes that they wore were really very glittery.
There costumes were really very nice.
Pastor and her daughter really looks good.
The MOL was like modified again this year and i think its like better.
More music more singing more professional more entertaining.
And they changed the magic that involves water i guess it is quite wise of them to do that.
All i got to say was it was amazing. It just feels different. I don't feel that it was like i have watch before or what so ever.
I don't know why whenever it come to Priscilla saying about her past i kind of teared again.
I guess is because my relationship with my dad is like no good now and maybe i simply understands how she feels thats why.
After MOL, i took MRT with Alvina, and i went to Orchard to get some stuff and bought myself a top. Quite nice and retro!
Then headed back home and prepared my stuff for today's trial!

SUNDAY.

Had cycling timetrial(40km) today.
The weather was bad today morning, it was like raining!
I just didn't felt good today.
Feel very tired. Like i have been racing for many days like that.
I was just not up to it today.
I was firstly mentally defeated.
Its like before the trial started i knew i wouldn't do well.
What i read from the book "The Ulitmate Ride" was that unless you are a 100% Ready Athlete before your trials then will you do well.
1oo% Ready athlete means that you must be physically and mentally prepared for this trial.
It was quoted "You want to win you can't doubt your abilities"and " unless you are confident of yourself if not you won't perform well".
The mental is very important. And i don't have it before the trials.
I guess coach and i knew that i won't do extremely well today because he knows that i am like tired. Imagine trialling for 4 days haha.
I did slower than Pat and the rest. I did a 1.14.51 and the rest did like 1 min plus faster than me.
Not a good time la but consider i improved because the last time i did i did a 1.17 plus and i cheated. I drafted the last time this time i did not.
Actually i thought it would be cancelled but it went on haha.
I was like just cycling and losing my confidence every moment in the trial.
Oh and i lost my focus too in my first round i was like so distracted with my dad and the pressure that my dad gave and lost my mind, almost like skidded lucky didn't fall haha.
And on the last round i kinda chased a little when i saw Elaine go pass me.
I kept the distance away so i don't think thats consider drafting.
Well i guess at that moment i realised i lost enough time haha.
Got back my focus a little.
Alisa is like back!
Oh and coach felt that my performance is like acceptable today because he understands that i am not in top form today and i still improve.
Well obviously the one who is most unhappy with my results is my dad.
My mum told me that he is dissappointed over me,
which i don't understand why!
I think i am satisfied with my performance this period!
I finally found out that my dad's expectation is harder to meet than my coach's expectation.
And because of my dad pressurising me i guess i lost like 1 kg this week!
Scary! Next week is back to training! Yeah!
No more trials!
Good job Pat you really improved alot on your bike! Getting Scary!
Keep going!
Actually trials is a good thing because we can like taper but i don't like trials now because of my dad's pressure I rather train.
My dad is like so impatient always want something more.
Next week training would be quite boring most of them are going holidays.
Enjoy your hols esp. Pat! haha I'll miss you girl. Take care ah! Better recover form your sick ah!
haha and next tuesday i wanna go shopping and relax since i not going holidays this year!
I can sleep with peace now! And take a short break and get on my toes again!

loves;
2:41 PM

YFriday, December 15, 2006.

STRESSED OUT!

stressed out today!
actually the day was very nice but my dad spoilt it!
i don't understand why my dad loves to stress me?
i just ran for fun today!
whats the big matter if i don't do well today.
anyway its not my trials today, i did it last week!
and coach is not even expecting anything out from me today.
all i can say is that i'm just tired today!
physically and mentally tired!
i need a break! need to relax!
i can't be like peaking every week!
anyway everyone didn't do well so whats the big deal.
except for ppl like mansheng and pam they could improve.
to me i think i fair very well last week.
and i need a break!
i'm like satisfied. i find that i improve enough.
i just can't focus today and just can't run it today!
my body is not up to it.
so what if i am like one over min slower than last week?
why does my dad cares about his face so much?
i guess it will be hard for me to improve the next time and i was like right!
i gave it all last week and this week.
and i can't be not bothered with my dad because his face like so black.
he just want me to be so competitive and stress out.
why can't he relax.
coach is not even saying anything and he aren't my coach.
i just simply hope i do well tmr and on sunday.
Everything have its time thats in the Bible. God said it!
there will be a time i do it again. after this week its time for me to focus back in training again.
no more trials yeah!
i have got enough of pain and tears!

loves;
9:08 PM

YThursday, December 14, 2006.

BAD TRIAL BAD DAY!

its like a bad day for me today.
did badly for my swimming retrial today.
swam a 21.55 which is like 20 sec off my last week's trial.
whats the matter with me today.
i felt so pressurised and stressed during the swim.
well not trying to like say something bad or what,
but was little stressed with Pat swimming beside me.
i was like wondering what in the world am i doing.
so concerned about her beside me that i lost count hee.
funny right.
everyone thought they did better today but apparently not.
i'm surprised. except mansheng la.
damn it! i don't care i'm going to like retrial on saturday!
just simply not satisfied.
well so moody over not doing well,
i went back home my mum still nags at me at the card why its like not send out.
and my grandma nags at me for bringing her to eat the wrong veg.
like KAI LAN and CAI XIN i don't really find any difference??? is green veg?
and my dad nags at me in the car for not swimming well.
whats wrong with all of them man!
everything seems wrong today!
and i regretted changing my strokes today.
i think it doesn't suit to use for long distance!
argh!
tmr another trial hope to do well!
not my day!
(pat i hope you don't misunderstood its just my feelings la!)

loves;
10:43 PM

YWednesday, December 13, 2006.

DOWN TOWN

today me, pam, clar, mansheng and joel went town.
we'll suppose to be like having lunch then watch a movie.
but we just couldn't like make it for any movies today.
we went to like Vilage to have lunch it was used to be called Marche.
i kinda missed that place since so long i haven't been there to eat.
i ate like rosti with sausage and carmel banana crepe with ice cream.
taste good man! so weird they were like staring at me having lunch and pam took photo of me. Gosh! I'm like eating???
well guess what some of my weird friend got for lunch?
mansheng had like 2 scoops of ice-cream and chocolate smoothie for lunch!
thats like call LUNCH for him... haha.
pam had the same as thing as me and so ate like so little can't finish her food.
clar and joel share pizza.
oh ya guess what happened earlier dunno who broke the bottle of root beer that pam bought, and mansheng ended up buying another one for her.

after lunch we went to take like Neoprints,
apparently its been awhile i last took neoprints.
i took it like when i was in china.
Singapore one is like so expensive and small and not as nice i feel.
its like 10 times more expensive.
and we like spend most of our time taking photos.
stupid mansheng just unwilling to like pose haha.
then we headed to Cathay to see if there is any movies we can like watch.
but there was none we could watch because if we watch we won't be in time for training.
so they decided to go Arcade to play.
i am not the game kind so just didn't really join them to play.
i played some boring games and lastly the racing car thing.
i felt like lost there. they really seemed to like have fun haha.

they then slack around at the cine food court while i go get some of my card materials.
after that they took cab down and i took bus down to training since the taxi could only take 4 hee.
it was like raining heavily at MacRitchie but it eventually stopped.
then we ran like 35 mins and do all the weird stuff.
and coach like spoke to us

sometimes i feel its better to like go out alone so you don't really need to worry about other ppl's feelings. at some point i just felt uneasy with the group. sorry to say that hee...
after today so called outing, i found out that Mansheng can really talks alot and talks very fast man.
He's weird! Super Weird character! Oh God! Super racist too!
He reminds me of Ryan who talks alot too haha... but at least Ryan not as weird as him.
i also found out that i should like lose weight after like going out with two slim girls haha...
feel so bad of myself haha...
friday we will be going out again. simply looking forward to it and this time we really must catch a movie!

loves;
10:05 PM

YTuesday, December 12, 2006.

back from swimming training. had been swimming well today.
its been quite sometime i last swam around 1.20-1.21 average for my 10Xs 100m.
coach say i swam quite well and ask me not to be over-excited for thursday's re-trial.
apparently last thursday i didn't swim well enough for my 1500m so need to do a re-trial.
but i did well for my 5km running trial clocking 22.54 PB. (improved 46secs in 1 month)
because of this i love triathlon more.
thank God for his work, thank my training mates and my coach too.
i guess after this time-trial its gonna be harder for me the next timetrial since i improved so much for this one. need to seek God for major help!

simply just hope that this week will pass slowly, because once the start of next week training intensity will be increasing.
gonna start aching and soring all over my body again. pain. sob.
many will be going on holiday.
esp. my training partner Pat, gonna miss her for a week?
haha lucky girl going thailand with her family.
can you bring me along? joking!
gonna lose abit of my motivation without her, no one to push me.
thanks to her for training with me everyday hee.
hopefully she can do well for this timetrial and obviously hope i can do well too.
once she's gone then left coach and mansheng to drive me to train.
gonna need to push my mind and i guess i need God to help me to do it!
i can't do it alone.

today's training was really funny.
i was teasing Mansheng and i really enjoy looking at his funny expressions.
bring some laughters to training since training have always been so serious haha.
the way he reacts is really hilarious!
oh yar and today i didn't go for morning cycling training because i was like too tired.
i don't find the reason to climb mt faber today because we gonna have timetrial this week.
i guess we just need to like rest!
anyway i am not the only one, Pat didn't go too. hee.
Dexter- thanks for saying sorry to me! really appreciate that!(if you see it)

Last week was cool had fun with my spiritual family.
Hope this week will be cool too.
looking forward to tmr going out with my training mates for shopping movies lunch and then training!!!

some personal comment - after reading my spiritual brother, Dalston's blog i guess having a blog have it like pros and its cons. Pros is that you can share something meaningful and ppl appreciating it. Cons is ppl don't understand you in a way misunderstood you and don't appreciate it and discriminate you on the blog. esp on the tagboard.
To my wonderful spiritual brothers- i guess you guys don't need to reply to ppl who don't worth you replying. some ppl just don't understand God's love. So simply just let it be no point arguing it becomes childish and immature after awhile. Just do what you think is right the rest leave it to God and just pray!

loves;
10:47 PM

YMonday, December 11, 2006.

FIRST ONE?

Guess what its so hard to find a blogskin that i like.
wanted to start blogging two days ago but still can't find something i like so i could not blog.
Actually i don't understand why i should blog haha.
but apparently many ppl have been asking for my blog so i decided to blog again.
i don't really have the habit to blog everytime hee.
Anyway this will be my new blog and hope you guys enjoy it.
In this blog it will be all about my sporting and spiritual life.
And as to why i chose this blogskin is because i love colours colours brighten up my day man!

loves;
11:00 PM